Anybody home? // Trying to come back to the blogosphere once more

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I tend to disappear more than I want to. 😦

I last popped back in September and I really, really wanted to be consistent but I am appalled at how inconsistent I can be.  Although, there were multiple reasons (not trying to give excuses here, but I genuinely lost all motivation) that pushed me back.

  • My work life. I switched into freelancing which did give me a lot of freedom, however, took it away as well. I dunno. Work pressure is weird in freelancing and I couldn’t balance my time for blogging. I felt like I was always tired and even if I had the time, I couldn’t get up to do anything. Though I feel after a little less than a year in freelancing, I have started to get the hang of it.
  • My mental health went haywire. The pandemic was definitely to blame along with a variety of personal reasons which drained me of any energy. I struggled a lot with motivation to do basically anything so I had to take help. A lot better now but it’s life. It’ll keep throwing curveballs and I have to learn to work alongside it. 

  • Multi-tasking. This has always been an issue for me. I have tried scheduling posts and it has worked but then it hasn’t. So I am going to try to post 3-4 times a month and if not possible, I am not going to beat myself up for it. 
  • I got back into reading. My biggest letdown in 2019 was I barely read. The pandemic did provide me with the chance to pick up my reading habit as well. Definitely not aiming for 100 books like I used to, however, will definitely be happy with a half-century! Or less. I am just so glad I have started reading regularly again. 
  • Trying to be more self-aware and empathetic. This year has definitely taught me a lot. Thankfully, I have pretty awesome friends who have been a great support system. So being more kind and understanding adds up to the list as well.
  • So basically I am a work in progress! Hoping to be consistent this time since I cannot for the love of anything, leave this blog behind.

If you have stayed and read this far, a genuine thank you from the bottom of my heart. 💜


Hello from the other side. If anybody’s still out there, how have you been doing?

I maybe considered permanent hiatus? Future blogging plans?

Hi guys! Remember me?

I am sorry I disappeared out of the blue. Things definitely got hectic after I started working,. I don’t know how so many people here manage their jobs, life, and blogging together. It is definitely tough but I did not want to give up on it when I first started working. But as time passed that hope dimmed. Bit by bit. I think I last posted in February and my blogging schedule has been a bit random before that as well. Personal life has not a blast as well. It’s not all down but I am fighting with myself at the moment. The saddest thing is that I barely read these days. I did not think a day like this would ever come. I um… really want to get back again but I do not know how to. Can somebody show me the way?

I think I had almost given up hope for blogging but a few days ago I met my brother. He kinda convinced me not to give up even if it’s posting twice or thrice a month. I think I am going to do that. I definitely won’t be able to post as frequently as I used to but I am going to give blogging another try.

Please help me out, guys. What do you guys want to see the most?

My Daydreaming Discussions, K-Drama reviews or Book reviews? Or any other recooooooommendations?

What do you guys think?? Lemme knooow please!!

 

 

It’s a new year! A new beginning and a fresh start.

First of all, happy new year guys! ❤
It’s been a long time. How have you guys been?

I have been absent for quite some time now but this year I plan to bring a fresh ton of content! Okay, I might be not as regular as I used to but I am officially back. I already have quite a few posts written and I am really glad to have my blogging days back.

2018 was a mixed year for me. On the positive, I made and met a lot of friends (mostly BTS A.R.M.Y!), started working, found positivity again. On the downhill, things got a bit rough at work. Nothing I could not handle but the mental toll was too much. So after changing office, I feel like I have a fresh start again and I am enjoying working as a content writer. Also, I only read 35 books which is a bummer but I discovered quite a few gems among them. According to Goodreads, my shortest book was Iron to Iron by Ryan Graudin of 104 pages which was a novella while the longest book was Gemina by Jay Kristoff and Amie Kaufman of 659 pages! Yohoo!! I finally completed The Illuminae series which was definitely one of the best reads for me this year!

I definitely plan to read more this year as well as write and maintain consistency on my blog. Apart from this, I don’t have any particular resolutions apart from staying positive and spreading that positivity everywhere!


So guys, what about you?

How was your 2018?

Any resolutions for this year?

What is the best book you have read in 2018 and what are your most anticipated for 2019??

A Thank You Note to the People Who Matter.

Okaaaaaaay, so 2017 has been not such a great year for me. I had to go through a lot of stuff which affected me mentally and physically but even in the darkest times, there were moments I was thankful for. So, I thought why not say it out loud and thank the people and stuff I was grateful for.

Enough of the gloomy stuff, Meeeeerry Christmas (in advance) everybody! ❤ Hope you guys have a great day and an awesooooome year ahead!! And I hope your every moment is filled with happiness and love.

Things I’ve been grateful for this year:

💟 My parents, especially my mom for trying to understand what I was going through. for just being by my side. Without her support, this year would have been a tough ride.

💟 BOOKS. The eternal love of my life. Books+Me= Life. Seriously, I would have been lost if I hadn’t found my way to books! They helped me not go totally crazy and also my escape from reality when I needed to clear my head.

💟 BTS. I can not be thankful enough. I don’t even want to think what my life was without them. Their songs, their craziness is indeed helping me to stay positive. BTS never fails to bring a smile on my face. And the ARMY family. Oh, my goodness, I can’t even begin to say… they are awesome. I have gained a whole new family and they have also become my favourite people in the world. Love you fam! ❤

That’s totally me fangirling! Also Jin!

💟 I’m also super grateful to English subbers. They seriously need a big shout out!! I mean without them, I couldn’t have understood a single thing my bias and my favourite group was saying. I sooo want to learn Korean but well, I will someday! Also, K-Dramas!! Thank god for the subtitles and those who take time to translate everything to English for us, international fans!

💟  This beautiful blogging community. Thank you for welcoming me into your bookish family, for staying by my side all this time. As a result, I have gained so many amazing friends. I’m sooo thankful to my friends and followers for continuing to support me! Love you guys! ❤

Memorable stuff in 2017:

💟 2017 was a successful blogging year. I was really happy with my blogging life. I don’t care about the stats or anything else, like seriously (most of the times) but I’m happy that I made new friends and well, I just love blogging, okay. It makes me happy! And books! (And BTS.)

💟 I finally gathered the courage to get help for my depression and anxiety with my mom by my side. And things are getting a little better step by step. (Though my lose my shit then and again.)

💟 I lost a looot of weight. For myself. I needed to for health reasons.
[Side note: I realised my body image issues were not from stemmed from within but from what the society has been constantly saying you have to look like that, you have to look like this to be perfect. Society can go to hell! Like seriously!
Anyway, a lot of people in my class and neighbourhood started noticing the change and they were like “oooh, you lost so much weight.” The first few times, I was kinda happy that okay, my efforts were working but then I started to feel irritated. Why should my body matter to anybody else before me! What’s wrong with being chubby. And why do people have to point that out if anybody is overweight or underweight! Why! Can’t they just keep their mouth shut and take care of their lives first! Okay, okay rant over and I also, hereby proudly admit I’m a cute little potato. Nah, but seriously the society needs a change.]

💟 I also finally got a new phone. Yayieee! My old one which I used for 6 years was barely working, so it’s a refreshing change now. 😀

💟 I plastered my bedroom wall with all the fangirly stuff I could find. Quotes, inspirations and of course my love for countless fandoms! But there were a loooot of posters to put up, I could have done it alone without the help of my little brother. And it was super fun, while BTS was playing on a loop.


So guys, how was 2017 for you? Was it an overall good year or meh? What are your most memorable moments this year??

TV Show Review: SKAM || A strong friendship with sprinkles of everything in between

SKAM was a Norwegian tv show (It means shame in English). I randomly discovered it one day on YouTube. I most often get lost in YouTube and end up discovering new Tv shows and movies which is a plus I guess! 😂😂

Anyway, I watched SKAM probably in July or August. I can’t exactly remember right now but it was fun and a fast watch. There were total 4 seasons consisting of 10-12 episodes of 20 minutes each, so it didn’t take much longer to binge watch this. And thank god for English subtitles!

All the 4 seasons centres around 1 school and a group of friends but each season has one of those characters from the group as the main lead of the show and each season deals with an important issue whether it’s social or mental health. I skipped season 1 because I had seen enough clips on YouTube to know that I wouldn’t enjoy it. Also, it didn’t affect my enjoyment for the later seasons.


Season 2

Created by: Julie Andem
Genre: Contemporary, Romance, [Young-Adult]
Main character: Noora (Josefine Frida Pettersen)
Episodes: 12

Season 2 deals with the character of Noora and her relationship with William. Mostly this season consisted of loooots of makeout! 😂 But I loved the chemistry between them.

Anyway, I definitely loved Noora in this season. She is smart and kind and is against mindless violence which is the complete opposite of William. She stood up for her friends and was always there when her friends needed her. Although William was gorgeous, his character was a bit problematic and I didn’t quite like him at first but he stayed true to Noora and eventually Noora gave in. This season also dealt with blackmail and the consequences of it. But above all, their relationship stood up strong enough to withheld the problems that came their way. Although I liked William, he was a nice guy but there were some things I would never be okay with his character but I was glad to see them together in the end.


Season 3

Created by: Julie Andem
Genre: Contemporary, Romance, [Young-Adult]
Main character: Isak (Tarjei Sandvik Moe)
Episodes: 10

This was definitely my most favourite season. I completely adored Isak and Even. Isak has always been with girls but he had never felt that spark until Even comes in the picture. But Even has a girlfriend yet he shows interest in Isak which confuses him but when Even decides to be with him, everything completely changes. Their relationship was really, reeeeaally adorable and just cuteness overloaded!

Aren’t they freaking asdflkjgh adorable!!! ❤

This season was diverse and dealt with bipolar disorder. Due to Isak’s mother’s medical condition, Isak withdraws himself from Even after knowing his condition but soon enough with the help of his friends he realises the truth and decides to be with Even.

I loved the fact that his friends accepted him just as he was without questioning his sexuality which he was the most afraid to face. All the characters from the previous seasons were there, though I didn’t like Noora much in this season because she constantly kept complaining how William was not giving her enough time instead of actually doing something about it. Anyway, both Isak and Even were just beautiful and their chemistry was off the charts! Things definitely took a turn for the worse but I loooved how this season ended and how Isak and Even both accepted the truth and moved on with each other.


Season 4

Created by: Julie Andem
Genre: Contemporary, Romance, [Young-Adult]
Main character: Sana (Iman Meskini)
Episodes: 10

I was not sure if I was going to like this season but I was intrigued enough to give it a try and damn, I looooved it.

Sana is a Muslim girl who is trying to fit in without giving up on her beliefs and faith on her religion. Among the girls, Sana is the wisest member of the group. Without her advice, Noora and William would never be together in the first place but along the way, she makes a blundering mistake of accidentally bullying online with thinking about the consequences.

The mistake she makes is done in a split second rage in need for petty revenge. She understands her mistake quickly but the news has spread like wildfire till then. I LOVED the fact that she was bold enough to confess to her friends instead of taking the easy way out. Another fact that I enjoyed was Sana’s relationship with her mother. Among all the characters, only Sana had a stable family and her mother was really cool!! I loved her! She tried her best to understand Sana and support her. Throughout this season, she also falls for a guy called Yousef who she thinks is a Muslim but it is later revealed it’s not. It becomes difficult for her to choose between her faith and her love for Yousef but in the end, she decides to follow her heart.

I loved the epilogue of this show. I loved the positive female friendship in this show! All the characters are shown in the Sana’s house for Eid-celebration and I really loved how everything ended. And I was kinda glad again I didn’t watch season 1 because I saw everyone rooting for Eva and Chris and then what the hell happened with that!!!! Anyway, I was thankful that the couples I shipped got a happy ending or rather a beginning in the end! I definitely didn’t want the show to end but I was satisfied how everything wrapped up.

Recommend it?

Yes!


So guys, have any of you watched SKAM yet? If yes, did you enjoy it? Which season was your favourite?

Mini Movie Reviews! || Where I rant and gush about my favourite characters

Name: The Shallows
Genre: Drama, Horror, Thriller
Director: Jaume Collet-Serra
Cast: Blake Lively, Óscar Jaenada, Angelo Josue Lozano Corzo
Release Date: 24 June 2016 (USA)
My Rating:

Nancy loves surfing just like her mother. After her death, she faded away from her family. One day, while surfing, she finds herself stuck in the feeding ground of a great white shark. It becomes her ultimate challenge to reach the shore with her life intact. I watched this a few weeks ago with my mother and damn this was an awesome movie. I was on the edge from the very start and there were definitely nail-biting moments. The visuals were amazing and I absolutely loved how Blake Lively portrayed her character.

Recommend it?

Yes.


Name: Power Rangers
Genre: Action, Adventure, Sci-Fi
Director: Dean Israelite
Cast: Dacre Montgomery, Naomi Scott, RJ Cyler, Ludi Lin, Becky G., Elizabeth Banks
Release Date: 24 March 2017 (USA)
My Rating:

First of all, don’t roll your eyes, mister! Power Rangers will always have a special place in my heart. Anyway, my brother and I had planned to see this movie together since the trailer came out and I was so giddy when it was finally released in our country and we had a blast.

Jason, Kimberly, Billy, Zack, and Trini are all outcasts. After a particular incident, they discover a strange new world under the mine where they learn they are destined to be the Power Rangers to save the world from the power hungry Rita.

This movie focused a lot on the friendship than the actual action which came up way later on. I kind of liked that though I wished they had morphed a little earlier. When they learned that the stones had chosen them and they were to be the Power Rangers, their reluctance to take such a huge responsibility made them more realistic. And yay for diversity when Zack finally discovers Trini is gay but there was kind of obvious chemistry between them. Nonetheless, I loved how all of them bonded together to finally defeat Rita and when they finally morphed, it gave me goosebumps, I felt like I was back in standard 5 when I as a huge Power Ranger fan. The morphing in this movie was a new concept which I definitely favoured more than how they usually did it. Overall, it was a funtastic movie.

Recommend it?

Yes!


Name: Doctor Strange
Genre: Action, Adventure, Fantasy
Director: Scott Derrickson
Cast: Benedict Cumberbatch, Chiwetel Ejiofor, Rachel McAdams, Tilda Swinton, Mads Mikkelsen
Release Date: 4 November 2016 (USA)
My Rating:

For Dr. Stephen Strange, his hands are everything with which he performs miracle surgeries one after another. But after a horrific car accident which renders him helpless, he seeks help in the mystic arts.

I had a lot of expectations from this movie but in the end, I was disappointed. There were definitely great moments but it didn’t manage to surpass my expectations. After an accident which damages the nerve tissues of his hands, he goes to Katmandu, Nepal to learn how to overcome his difficulties. There he meets the Ancient One who teaches him how to harness his inner powers to beat his problems. Sometimes, things got a little complicated to understand, other times it was enjoyable. Strange’s cape was pretty amusing and I hope we get to learn a bit more about it in the sequel. I liked the ultimate battle between Dormammu, the ruler of the dark planet and Dr. Strange and albeit it was a bit funny as well. But it was kind of weird to see Mordo going evil because he didn’t agree with the Ancient One’s and Strange’s rule.

The ending with Thor surprised me and I guess we have to wait to know what happens next (if there’s a next).

Recommend it?

Yes.


Name: Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them
Genre: Adventure, Family, Fantasy
Director: David Yates
Cast: Eddie Redmayne, Katherine Waterston, Alison Sudol, Dan Fogler, Ezra Miller, Colin Farrell
Release Date: 18 November 2016 (USA)
My Rating:

I was not originally going to review this movie but then again, why the hell not. Anyway, this was one of the best 3D movies I have ever seen and I loved it so freaking much.

Newt comes to New York in search of a particular magical beast but he ends up accidentally swapping his suitcase full of magical creatures with aspiring baker Jacob Kowalski which ends up with some of the creatures escaping. He is taken in by Tina who is a part of “magical police” who takes them to their home where Queenie, her sister is present. Together, they set on an adventure to capture all the creatures but something far more dangerous may be brewing underneath.

This movie was such a blast. I was hooked right from the start and there was not a single dull moment. I loved Newt, seriously who wouldn’t fall for that guy! He cared for the beasts like his own children and that was an adorable sight. I enjoyed his adventure alongside Jacob, Tina, and Queenie so much. Each of the characters were unique in their own way. One of the most interesting aspects of this movie was the obscurus, and how finally we could link it to Ariana (Dumbledore’s sister), I can’t wait to learn more about it. I hated how Graves treated Credence and I never saw the twist coming, I was so sure what it was going to be but then it hit us on the face! We also finally got a glimpse of the infamous Grindelwald and I am sooo eager to see how it all goes down!

Recommend it?

Yes!


Name: Moana
Genre: Animation, Adventure, Comedy
Directors: Ron Clements, Don Hall, John Musker, Chris Williams
Cast/Voice: Stars: Auli’i Cravalho, Dwayne Johnson, Rachel House
Release Date: 23 November 2016 (USA)
My Rating:

This was the best animated movie I have ever seen in my entire life!! Moana longs for a life out in the seas but her father forbids her to go near the water as he wants her to take responsibility as the next leader of their clan. But something is happening to the forest, all the trees and dying and there are no fish anymore. She knows she has to restore the heart of Te fiti to make everything okay again but she can’t do that without the help of the Demigod Maui who nobody has seen for hundreds of years.

This movie was so epic! I laughed and cried and I felt I was in a grand adventure alongside Moana. Her ability to not give up gave me so much hope. Maui was a character I didn’t know what to think of at first but slowly he crept up to my heart. I enjoyed the backstory of the Maui and Moana’s tribe. When Moana finally finds Maui, with much reluctance, he set sails on the course with Moana to restore Te fiti’s heart but not without facing enormous difficulties on the way. I loved Moana’s affinity with the water and how it helped her whenever she was in trouble. The lava monster was the most difficult hurdle on their way, it was also the one which nearly cost Maui his life so many years ago but I never saw the twist coming! It was so freaking good and I was in tears and the ending left me satisfied. The songs in the movie were extraordinarily good, I enjoyed them so much.

Recommend it?

Yes!


Name: Ballerina
Genre: Animation, Adventure, Comedy
Director: Eric Summer, Éric Warin
Cast/Voice: Elle Fanning, Dane DeHaan, Carly Rae Jepsen, Maddie Ziegler
Release Date: December 2016
My Rating:

I saw this just yesterday and it was such an adorable movie. Felicie and Victor are best friends and together they run away from their orphanage to Paris to make their dreams come true. Felicie wants to be a renowned ballerina whereas Victor dreams of being the greatest inventor on this planet.

There is a thing about animated movies, they manage to fill you with hope every single time and this movie was no different. I enjoyed it so much. Felicie dreams of becoming a dancer and when she discovers ballet, she knows what she wants to become. Though she takes refuge to lies but I understood under what condition she had to do so and she was genuinely sorry for that as well. One thing that I didn’t like about Felicie was that how she put aside Victor’s feelings, it was pretty clear from the start that Victor liked her and Felicie was aware of that somewhat, yet she still treated him like crap. I was happy to see her finally come to her senses and I loved the relationship which she developed with Odette, the mysterious caretaker, who took her under her wings. Also, I don’t remember if I have ever seen a dance face-off in animated movies before and on top of that a ballet face-off, it was pretty awesome!

Recommend it?

Yes.


So, have you guys seen any of the movies in my list? If yes, what are your thoughts about them?

Final Update: I freaking won Camp NaNoWriMo!!

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Hey guuuuuys! How are you all doing?

You can check out my week 1 update here and week 2 update here.

So it’s obvious now what I want to say, I won Camp NaNoWriMo guys! 😀 I can’t be any happier! I seriously feel so good. I knew I was going to have a super busy day today, so yesterday night, precisely after 12, (so it can be kinda counted as today!) around 3 am I started writing and I finished at 5 in the morning! (My mind works super fast after 12!) Suddenly all the words were flowing and I couldn’t stop writing and that ultimately led me to cross my Camp goal!

My original goal was 15k, but after reaching that goal, I increased it to 25k. In July, I started a new course, had 6 hours of class in the weekends, taught my (freaking monkey) students, read quite a few books and wasted some unnecessary time. With all of these alongside with me, I think I did good for a first timer! Though my project is only 50% complete, I plan to continue writing in August and finish my firstest first draft!

But seriously, participating in Camp NaNoWriMo was the best decision ever! I had so much fun, my camp buddies were pretty awesome and we had a blast! And Camp seriously helped my motivation to keep writing! with We also have a group in Quip where we have sprint charts and stuff, so I guess I’ll be lurking around there as well in August. Overall, I had a great experience, I’ll be definitely participating in November, although I’m not quite sure about it but I’ll give it a go! Can’t wait for another Camp next year!


So guys, did you participate in Camp NaNoWriMo? Did you succeed in reaching your goal? How was your overall experience?

Week 2- Camp NaNoWriMo Update! And plans for Week 3!

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Hey guys! How are you all doing this week?

This post is going to be pretty short as I’ll give a quick update about how I’m faring in Camp NaNoWriMo so far. To read about my previous week’s update and my novel’s blurb (well… kind of), you can click here.

So as I told you guys earlier, week 1 was pretty good for me. I have already reached my minimal goal of 15K. So I’ve updated my goal to 25K now. It’s not much but I’m willing to push myself further.

Also, previously I was writing from a single POV though a second POV was thrown in between at regular intervals. But then I noticed that it was kind of becoming monotonous plus I’ve seen most of the NA novels have alternating point of views. I understood that why more deeply. Therefore I made a few changes which actually helped me. I was stuck but due to this change I was successful in outlining most of my chapters yesterday night. Only a few are left! 😀

But this week’s progress has been slow as I couldn’t write these past 3 days as I’ve been quite sick but I’m feeling better now so I’m going to get back to writing today.

My plans for week 3 is…. to write of course! But progress is going to be slow as well because I have a big test this upcoming Friday and I’ve got a loooot of studying to do but I have got the last week free, so I mostly plan to catch up on that week but I’m going to try my best and continue writing as much as possible this week!


Are you participating in Camp NaNoWriMo this month? How’s your writing coming along? Have you face any difficulties along the way? If yes, then how have you overcome it?

Week 1- Camp NaNoWriMo Update!

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Hey guys, how are you all doing? 🙂

This post is going to be short as I’ll be giving only a short update about Camp NaNoWriMo.

This is the first time that I’m participating in Camp NaNoWriMo. If you don’t know what it is, then let me tell you briefly. Camp NaNoWriMo is held in April and July. Anyone can join who loves to write. We can set any goal that we want to reach and write according to our own pace and we are also assigned cabins (optional) where we can talk and discuss various things with other writers. So that’s about it!

I didn’t like my first cabin much, it was all too quite and inactive but then I saw Shay’s post where she wrote she was looking for cabin members. It was already three days since camp started but luckily there was still a spot available and I got in. And seriously that cabin is awesome! Oh and now some update about my writing. I can’t begin to tell you how great it feels to write again. I stopped for about a year or two but now I hope I can carry on and fit it into my daily routine. I didn’t know what was going to happen so I had set my goal to 15,000 but I have already crossed 11K today! 😀 I feel so happy. I might just increase my goal. Though I’m a little stuck but I hope I can figure that out by tomorrow.

Now it’s time for the blurb-

Antara shifts to a new house as her mom decides to get remarried. Her step-father offers her his old house which he doesn’t use anymore. When she steps inside, she gets the shock of her life as a guy is already living there and she finds it is none other than her school crush, Joshua.

They both decide they’ll try to live in the same house if they can keep out of each other’s way. But staying in the same house as her crush turns out to be quite difficult but she knows she’s way out of his league. Will she be able to tell him about her real feelings, ever? Can anything be remotely possible between a Bong and a Brit?

Please don’t judge. I’m terrible at writing blurbs or short synopsis’. Oh and it’s called Chasing Love… for now! it’s a NA love story between a Bengali and a British. My sappy hopeless romantic side of me wanted to start with this idea that I had for about 10 million years… or so, so I’m finally giving this a try!


So what do you think about it? Are you participating in Camp NaNoWriMo? Is it your first time too? How has been your writing week so far?

Confessions of a Daydreaming Bibliophile…

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Sooo… I think this one’s a long due post! I’ve never shared anything so personal till now… Nonetheless I’ll try to keep this one short and not bore you guys with my blabbering. So here we go..

For the past few months, bookishly it has been pretty great but in all the other ways possible, it was the worst few months of my life.

I’ve studied my last 3 years of my college with the one target in my mind- that I had to get into Calcutta University (C.U), that’s where I wanted to do my Master’s degree from. I loved studying English Literature, therefore I really wanted to do my Master’s as well. The thing is if your college is affiliated under C.U and you had a certain overall percentage of the 3 years of college then you could get directly into the university as 60% of the seats are reserved. So I studied under a college which was affiliated under C.U so if I could do my 3rd year exams well, I would have the required percentage to get into C.U directly. So my results came out yesterday, I did pretty good, I topped my class and I had the percentage to get into uni directly. BUT…

Here comes the big but… My family’s financial situation is not very great right now, plus my father’s health is deteriorating and he can’t keep up like he used to so… the thing is… I need a job. Within 2 years max. To save my family from being the Titanic. And where I live, if I do my Masters, after that I’ll need another degree (which’ll again take 2 years) if I want to take teaching as a profession which I don’t want to. But I just wanted to study.

So… here we have a few institutes that help us prepare for the hundreds of job exams which thousands sit for but only a handful get selected, it’s pretty savage if you tell me… I mean for one job you have to cross 4 to 5 levels! So with my heart heavy I enrolled in one. I was pretty devastated at first because I was not going to study my Masters which I had dreamed for 3 years, I was frustrated and depressed. And I was pretty much crying every day. But when I attended the introduction class of that institute, the lecture that one of the teacher gave was… awesome and I seriously felt better but again after yesterday’s result I was feeling a bit down once again because I had the marks but I will not be going. Crushing a dream is hard… people. But for the long run I think the decision I took is the best for me and my family because ultimately the job matters and c’mon the money as well! But I want to keep writing and actually form a daily routine. And hopefully I’ll be able to make my writing dream a success one day… hopefully.

So here’s what has been bothering me for a few months but I have finally come to terms with it. (I’m still trying a bit to be honest.) My classes at the institute have also started, they are pretty hardcore but I’m enjoying them… eh at least I’m trying but from next month there’s going to be 9 hours of class although the classes are for 3 days a week but still… oh and to put a cherry on the top they’ll have exams everyday before class. I just hope I survive till the end of the year.
So… yeah, that’s it! Send positive vibes people and let’s hope I make it!

See you guys later in the next post! ❤